Fear.Support.Success.

Good evening.

Now i feel miserable and at the same time full of energy.

Today i was at the AIESEC meeting.. It was a time, when i see how young girl, younger than me, don't afraid to be a leader.. or maybe she doesn't show it....)

What about me? Stupid way of behavior. What was and is my limit? It is Fear! I am scared to be a leader. I am scared if i do mistakes, i am scared if i do something worse than others.. Too much..
Today a few hours ago i had also this thoughts..  I decided to take a leadership position, even for a short time, and now and again I hear my voice.my second ugly voice: "Don't dream. It is not yours. Keep silent".
Today my second normal voice (please, don't think that i am crazy.. no. It is just the names of my positive and negative thoughts.) also told: "Ok. you will keep silent, but will you satisfied? Will you happy if you even don't try? Ok, not try, but do?Just do, at least to see, is it yours to be a leader?" (There are 3 types of people, in my opinion, 1-that are afraid, but do. second - don't be afraid to be a leader.they can and they do, 3-people, who can do some automatic work and can't be a leader )
When i think about the third group, I feel scared, that i belong to this type..

I have 2 days to think about this challenge... How to manage my thoughts..

 I am only one person, who can do my life better or worse.....

Why can I apply for this leadership position?
Why can I do it good?
Why am I brave?
these 3 questions are re-branded  thoughts... They helped me last month.. hope, they help me this time too....

I don't want to waste my time....

To be continue...